an ET experience, and parallel timelines

i’ve had several (at least partially recalled) experiences with ets, but this is the one of which i have the most extended conscious recall.  the details of the following account are taken from my bedside dream journal, recorded the morning after it happened (may 12, 2009).   i am leaving out some very personal parts; other than that, what is written is just as it happened.  

i wanted to go to bed earlier that night because i have to get up with (my daughter) so early, but somehow thats easier said than done.  it was 12:10 am when i finally got to bed.  read a little seth (early sessions, bk 3) before turning out the light.  i settled down into the blankets but was still very much conscious and awake when my body started to feel funny, kinda warm and tingly all over.  i’m *quite sure* i was Awake when this all started.  i got that feeling of inevitability i get when the ets are here again (you just Know).  i had my eyes closed because i didn’t want to scare myself by looking.  i thought about how earlier i had been wanting to consciously participate in the experience next time it happened, but thought that if i opened my eyes and actually looked full-on at them, it would scare me too badly and i’d freak out and lose consciousness.  i really Did want to help them, but consciously this time.  i telepathically communicated my thoughts to them, saying that i’d like to see the stars, space, on my way to where ever we were going.  

i recall a scene of being carried upside down, my hair dragging on the wooden floor, getting a real close up view of the dust bunnies and small bits of debris on the floor.  this pissed me off and i was mentally asking/telling them not to drag me that way! those damn little greys, they are like little robots, they really don’t get it.  they don’t understand how humiliating it is to be carried that way.  i think my ire at them took precedence over my fear response.  

a very brief scene of being outside the house, in the yard.  then stars, but it was not very realistic.  at first i was thinking - wow! stars, there’s all the beautiful stars, just like i wanted! - but then i noticed that i was looking down through the stars and seeing the treetops.  the perspective wasn’t right.  another mind trick.

then i was in a room with them, on board their craft.  i got the feeling that we really hadn’t traveled very far.  perhaps still hovering over the treetops, slightly out-of-phase so as not to be seen.  i recall being laid down on a table.  there was a male standing at the foot of the table, wearing no clothes, at least not obvious ones.  i had ever-so-slightly opened my eyes - i wanted to see him, yet not frighten myself enough to cause me to black out.  i did get a good glimpse of him.  he was normal to tall size, not small.  his skin was darkish metal-gray, almost a blue-gray, a steel color.  his face was strong-looking, not angular per se, but squarish and masculine-looking, not round and soft. 

(i am leaving out a portion here, but will take up by saying that by this time, i am phasing in and out of consciousness).  i’m still on the metal table and they were doing something to my nose and mouth.  this part was dream-like in that i was viewing it from the side, as if they were doing this to someone else.  there was a scene where i saw myself over on the side of the room standing, mentally conversing with a group of ets, as if i was one of them, while the me on the table was protesting what they were doing to me.  they tipped the chin up and stuck something up the nose, also did something to my mouth that seemed like they were taking scrapings or samplings.  why are you doing these things to me? i’m mentally asking.  i knew that my discomfort was causing the phasing in and out of consciousness.  i understood that they were allowing me to remain conscious as much as possible, per my request.  i Had agreed to help them - i Wanted to help them.  

i was exchanging thoughts with the steel-gray male, and he said something that disturbed me Greatly.  he said - and i mean mentally, this exchange was all telepathic - that they were doing this so they could come here, to this planet earth, after we were gone.  they were preparing a race of people to live on earth after our demise.  i was Sharply Disturbed at what he said.  what do you mean, ‘after humans are gone’!?   i Love the human race!  

then i was standing beside this et being, on the surface of a brown and lifeless planet.  he had taken me there to show me first hand what we had done, and why they were creating a new race of beings.  this was Not just another idea-image that was put into my head.  i know the difference, just like with the stars and a lot of other times they have wanted me to think something.  there is a very subjective and hard to describe attribute of the mind tricks, but its like there is a psychological, wavering ‘frame’ around the edges of the thought or image they convey to you telepathically, like it is placed ‘on top of’ your natural thoughts, in some way, grafted in.  it may fool me at first, but then i recognize it as a trick.  no, i believe with all my being that i was actually There, taken to a time in our future, or at least a probable future, where the earth was like that.

i knew that mankind had not been kind to this earth!  that we had poisoned things, trashed it, had wars and killed each other.  i thought about how i have a firm conviction that something has to change.  but how much love, hope, compassion, and good there is in the human heart!!!  there are so many people here who have nothing to do with the bad stuff.  the average human is loving and kind.  the human heart is full of love and compassion!  i was aware that i was helping them create a race with the good parts of being human, without the bad.  this is what i wanted to do.  but i was So Sad that there would be no more humans like the ones that are here now.  

after phasing in and out of consciousness a few more times, i phased in back in my bedroom.  it took a few minutes to come all the way back.  i could hear the traffic noise, then i couldn’t, then i could.  i moved in and out of feeling like all was normal and i was just lying in my bed waiting to fall asleep for the night, and a weird state where things were ‘blank’, there was no traffic noise and my body felt very light and tingly.  then it seemed like i had never left my bed, but in a fake way.  i looked at the clock and it was 2:54 am.   it seemed like i had just put down my book, but almost 3 hours had passed.

later that next day, i recalled another scene that i added to my written account.  at some point, i had been trying to pick the brain of this metallic gray male et.  i asked him how to manifest another house of my own (this makes me laugh now).  i was fast and furiously trying to think of questions i wanted answered to take full advantage of the situation.  the et answered something to the effect that it wasn’t within their expertise to advise us on such matters, but to just ‘let it flow’.  he seemed to be in a hurry. 

additional comments.  there are a mixture of beings on the crafts that i recall being on.  in the above experience, the large male et with the metallic-gray skin seemed to be in charge; he was not one of the greys.  the greys seem to be the ‘workforce’, and are annoying in that they don’t seem to understand humans and what is normal human behavior.   i have realized that it is my fear that keeps me from consciously remembering.  to the extent that my curiosity is stronger than my fear, i remember.  but it has always been a jumbled mess of remembered scenes interspersed with blacked-out blocks of time.  

i have felt increasingly compelled to share this particular experience, but really wrangled with the idea of doing it.  on the one hand, it may be construed as perpetuating negativity.  a burned out, lifeless earth is certainly a negative thought.  on the other hand, and my current thinking is, that we need to understand what we are up against.  how very important it IS for us to envision the earth that we want to inhabit.  i fully, with all of my being, believe that this earth that we live on today, is the same earth i was standing on with that et.  but that we are right now creating a new earth, laying down the template for it with our (planetwide) yearnings towards community, equality, and love.  

i have been piecing this together in my heart and in my mind for ages.  we have been given lots of clues.  bashar’s world, essassani, exists IN A DIFFERENT DIMENSION.  the greys come from our FUTURE, where their race is dying and they are creating a new race of beings to carry forth their legacy, so what they have learned and experienced doesn’t die.  i believe the greys are US, having gone underground to live in the so-called fema bunkers, after the surface of this earth gets fried.  in the vid “ufo’s and et’s”, bashar says that the greys came from the future to get genetic material from humans that are STILL HUMAN, PRE-MUTATED, from Their Point of View.   at the end of the vid “bashar - light and dark”, bashar says “but do understand, the population of the earth might not be the same in that new reality” (he was speaking about the slightly more positive than negative condition after the demarcation of 2012).  he has said that timelines have been merging, but will split apart again after 2012.  i believe we are in fact Creating that ‘more positive than negative’ earth Right Now!  isn’t it of Critical Importance that we realize that?!  

i believe we are actually Creating the parallel timeline, the dimension, in which the essassani and bashar exist.  i know it sounds crazy, circular.  maybe that’s why i was fixated on donnie darko for awhile, trying to figure this timeline thing out.  but my belief is that beings of "a" future came back to this time and helped us insert a probability, a parallel timeline in which positivity snowballed into peace.  the one in which humans turned themselves into greys still exists, and is in fact the one we currently live in (nuclear accidents, polution/toxicity, dna and genetic tinkering, nanotechnology, gmo foods, climate modification, etc).  but now we don’t have to participate in that one anymore.  we can grow up as a species, and create a world of tranquility, loving opportunity, and value fulfillment.

i envision a planet where everyone works together for the benefit of all.  where every being is seen and loved as equally valid and important as every other being.  where the physical environment is beautiful, appreciated and cared-for.  where the air is clean and fresh, the water alive and exhilarating.  all beings, including animal life, are respected and joyful.  communication is primarily by telepathy, there is no reason to hide anything, no secrets.  all is truly well.  everyone lives in ecstasy and fulfillment.  people love each other, without reservation.

i know that it has to be a choice.  we have to consciously CHOOSE to live this way.  but if we knew... if we knew our role in creating this peaceful probability, wouldn’t it be easier to not see the bad stuff. wouldn’t we try harder to work with the places inside ourselves that keep us from realizing Love and Peace in our Own endeavors?  it is a heavy tide we wrestle against, in this current planetary environment.  it would mean so much to know why we are doing it, and that it can have a good outcome.   i believe it is of PRIME Importance to integrate our dark sides (not ignore them and pretend they don't exist), to live in peace, envision a FUTURE of peace, and to accept and respect other's choices of how they wish to live their lives as equal to our own choices.