when you customarily think of pain, you think in singular terms, yourself only. there is upon the earth, especially now, an epidemic of pain. pain as perceived individually, and en mass. when the river is so raging, and so readily available, it is easy to fall into it. pain is a very acceptable way of stemming the tide of input/opportunity that presents itself all around you, everyday, and can be perceived as overwhelming. pain hooks you into it, as it instantly connects you with others, nearly everyone, who is also experiencing some overwhelm-ment and hesitation to take action. pain slows you down and allows integration. pain is a well-worn path that is all too easy to traverse. pain can get out of control, can open up a deep chasm of hesitation that can become so known and comfortable that it’s hard to see out the top. some people live in pain, die in pain, without knowing that there is another way to live. pain becomes so routine that it is not even questioned, especially if it becomes an inroad to connection with other people.
good questions to ask yourself when you are in pain: where am i hesitating to move forward. where am i hurting emotionally. what part of me wants to do something but thinks it too risky? where is my energy stuck in fear? its alot of times easier to converse about pain, and possibly pop an expensive pill and complain about the pharmaceutical companies and the government, than to confront yourself and the ways in which the inner you feels unfulfilled.
what so often happens is that when pain becomes a habit, it is not recognized as such, and a chronic condition is born and integrated. oh, i have arthritis, i have back pain, dental problems, stiff fingers. once it is accepted as part of one’s energy pattern/template, there has to be some movement somewhere in order to create a different pattern where it does not exist. often that movement is seen as scary and unwelcome by the ego part of you who must protect your current existence at all costs.
oftentimes, a re-focus of energy will take enough energy away from the pain and flow it through some other aspect of you, that the pain will temporarily diminish. until you panic upon realization of your freedom, and jump back into the more comfortable clothes of convention. and pain is very conventional. it is a universally accepted complaint. while it can be hard to bring up the subject of sexual unfulfillment, or loneliness, of vague worries about one’s future and fear of aging, commenting on one’s aching lower back will usually bring commiseration and nods of “yeah, me too”.
you Are influenced, even though it is a widely Unseen influence, by the streams of consciousness that flow along beside you and swirl around you. as a droplet of water moves within an ocean tide, you swim within an ocean of fellow individualized consciousnesses like schools of fish. turning suddenly sometimes, but as a group. it is difficult to dissociate yourself from the pack, and exist solitarily, nearly impossible to do so. the pull is very strong. so while you are dealing with your own internal stuff, you are feeling the very real influence of the world framework you exist within. and pain is an easy river of habit to fall into, as there are so very many others already there.
this is not to say it can’t be done. but a different perspective on pain is necessary. its all well and good to recognize that pain is telling you something about yourself, but to See with inner eyes what it is saying, and take Action on those things, that is what will rise you above the river of habit and connect you with a You that does differently.
another comment about pain. sometimes ego pushes forth a certain agenda, and leads you to believe that is the only one, because that is the less fearful one for ego. you may come to believe that you must follow ego’s calling in order to be relieved of pain. yeah, if i had more money, i would be pain-free. if i had a mate, if i were young again, if i had a different relationship with someone close to me. that is not inner self talking. following fear leads to more pain. what it usually comes down to is love of self, unconditional love of self. it begins with that, and expands outward to an existence where love of self is perpetuated by allowing inner self to play as it wishes, in earth environment. a disregard of what other’s might think, or what you Should be doing, or what ego screams is necessary to be doing. simply What feels good to me Now. not looking ahead, but just Being, in joy and peace. there is no place for pain in this kind of existence.
No comments:
Post a Comment