leap high

you are purposefully taking part in this framework that you have designed and then jumped into.  historically, you have not been able to leap from one square in it to another without taking all the steps in between; it has been slow going.  but now as you begin to touch more and more into the template level of yourself, vibrationally speaking, you Can make larger jumps, and without losing yourself.  but this requires that you integrate the Whole of your experience with each movement to another platform.  as your energy is different/shifted from that ‘place’ in time, you will then notice other platforms that you could not see from where you were before.  and this facilitates rapid movement.

skipping the small steps means the scenery is Much different with each movement.  rapid movement IS possible, but to do so requires something of you.  clear intent, a relaxed attitude about what you experience on a day to day basis, an allowance of flow (one thing into another without energy dams).  each platform brings new vistas of experience, and changes everything. 

so no, you do not have to be stuck in the mode of mundane small steps at a time, and experience the sense that you are not really getting anywhere.  you are Exactly where you want to be, as you went into this lifetime with full knowledge of the framework, and the implications thereof.   enjoy, and leap high.

allowing ourselves to be used, or not.

further explorations on the Manipulation theme. 

as usual, a series of seemingly random events led me to thinking about this.

a friend posted about an earthwide meditation for peace, to be held on a certain day, at a certain time.   i get lots of these.  when i ‘sign up’, they usually want my email address, to send me ‘updates’.  there’s usually a few pics of some of the high-rollers in the new age feel-good (and sell stuff) game, an invitation to a seminar, retreat, whatever, that cost Money, and related websites and books for sale on a sidebar.  

this latest one made me think... aren’t i a beacon for peace already, just by my life, by the way i choose to live, in every moment, and not just at a particular time?  reminds me of going to church on sunday to be spiritual for an hour, and cursing the neighbors the rest of the week.  who needs it?  advertisers maybe.  trend followers, maybe.   not to discount the power of bubble realities, compiled energy, beliefs entrainment.  but when i read someone (ANYone) being referred to as the midwife of mother gaia... huh??  who am i then?  a lesser being who needs more powerful beings to tell me what to do and when?  isn’t this just a continuation of the old paradigm, just in new clothes?  dressed up to appeal to well-researched memes and themes and market trends?

i believe that i am birthing my own reality, my own version of mother earth, in every single moment point.  i don’t have to wait until saturday.  and furthermore,  i trust what i am doing.  do i really believe that?  i do.

thinking about this synched in nicely with another thing going on recently. won’t waste time with details about how i got there, but a couple days ago, i ended up on a website where you register, answer some questions, take a test, and if you are someone they want, they ‘hire’ you to make predictions about the future.  the name of the organization is something that, by design i’m sure, is unlikely to raise any red flags.  the idea of predicting the future intrigued me, because i know that the future is inherent in the present moment.  that what we are putting out there in the electrical field/seth’s framework 2, IS our future.  and it fluctuates with every in and out breath.  there is no Future, as in sitting around with a crystal ball trying to ‘see’ it.  we are making it as a part of the Now moment, which is all there ever is.  so what are we making?  i was thinking that by putting forth possibilities publicly i might be able to contribute on a larger scale to Peace on Earth (now).   so i jumped through their hoops, and checked back periodically for a response.  next morning, it was in my inbox.  

two of them actually; a ‘welcome to our program’ and a details, how it all works, etc one.   being the naturally curious person that i am, before i even ‘checked in’ as i was instructed to do, i followed the email trail to try to find out who was behind the benign-sounding ‘predictive research’ group.  turns out there were alot of big corporate names/logos involved, and they are clients of this ‘trend prediction’ service (inkling is the name of it, which btw was not stated anywhere in the emails themselves).  digging around, i read a blog entry from someone who was involved in data collection (the data to be sold to the corporations, the data i would be contributing to).  it spoke about how to get people to do what you want, how to get them to do your bidding for free.  psychological manipulations they had experimented with, and the results.  not just in the marketplace and the usual media avenues, but school teachers, employees, social media.  facebook (guess that’s the one that stood out for me because i participate there).  

on the one hand i’m thinking... geez, how can we be such unthinking obedient little creatures?  they Do know how to manipulate us, and so Easily!  even the ‘test’ i took to get to participate, which seemed to me was designed to weed out people who ‘shot from the hip’ (the first answer, the obvious answer, was not the correct one; all the questions had that in common).  i felt pretty smart, thinking that i’d completed it correctly, and then getting ‘chosen’.  made me feel kinda like an insider, a caller of the game instead of just a participant.  ha!  

but on the other hand, some things i read there intrigued me.  it was an interesting exploration.  there was a link to ‘kiip’, which i hadn’t heard of.  its a system where they give ‘rewards’ (kinda like internet dollars) for ‘achievements’ such as completing profiles, posting data, etc. etc, on websites that carry their adverts.   something like this, in various forms, is already out there.  where they gently push people into a psychological investment in the website.  like on reddit where posts are voted up or down and the number of upvotes one gets is somehow Important.  in the commenters section of news and other types of organizations, where the people that post alot of stuff achieve some kind of status symbol by their monikers.  the trend now is to ‘reward’ people for participation by giving them coupons and money off products sold by the stores that are owned by these larger corporations who are paying for this trend prediction data. 

they want to know what the thinkers are thinking so that they can attach an ad to it.  and what better way to get maximum exposure than to make them feel invested in the place (virtual in this case) where they hawk their wares, apt to return again and again.  

there was talk of ‘front loading’ the rewards, then taking them away if they didn’t produce (achieve the desired results), as a way of making people feel more invested.  instead of earning it, they were given it and then threatened with its withdrawal.  it was said that studies showed this to be a superior method of motivation.  hummn...  make up a game, and figure out how to make people believe that they Have to play.  interesting to me how hardwired we can be, as a species, to react in predictable ways to specific stimuli. 

the take-away for me is that i need to be Very Conscious of how and where i direct my time and attention.   am i developing my Own intent, or mindlessly/blindingly helping someone else develop theirs.  

tools of the trade

the following thoughts were spawned from reading in seth early sessions books about the electrical reality behind physical manifestations.

we tend to think of emotion and mental activity/thought as being two different phenomena, but we know that there is no line separating the two parts of us (our emotional selves and our intellectual selves).  we are one homogenous being of course, One action.  but that action is composed of an infinity of varying intensities of probable actions.  could emotion and thought be differing ways of manipulating Action, which really i suppose just means Taking action (change and movement).  different ways of absorbing/integrating Action into our physical selves.  action that is already going on behind the scenes, in framework 2, with the physical manifestation of it being the last ‘step’, sts.  

could emotion and intellect be just different filters overlaying action (with neither being superior or inferior to the other), used in different combinations by various beings to “color” reality.  bashar said something about emotion being in a higher frequency range than intellect (which does Not equate to better), and if all action is just varying intensities of electrical reality, then emotion and intellect could be just tools of the/our (earth beings) trade, applied to action to color it for the pleasure of the artist. 

singing in the shower

you know how cool ideas, like poems or songs, or sudden insights just come to you spontaneously in the shower?  well today i was listening to wendy kennedy (ninth dimensional pleiadian collective) and got an idea about why this (shower thing) is so.  she was talking about how when we are contracted in fear, or worry, or lower-frequency states, our energetic bandwidths actually Are smaller, denser, narrower.   when we’re happy, smiling, content, comfortable, we are actually Wider, our bandwidth spreads out up to 6 ft.  when we’re scared or in a lower vibrational state, we can contract our field to only an inch or so wide.  very little can get in, can reach us, when we’re in such a state.  but when joyful, lots can get in.  this makes so much sense to me.  when i’ve been in my darkest times, i’ve felt abandoned by Everyone and Everything, totally alone.  now i can understand that i was never alone, i just couldn’t connect with higher vibrational aspects when i was so narrowly focused in fear.  

i Love the water!   love to feel warm water flowing down my back and belly (or cool water in the hot weather).  unless something Really heavy is on my mind, being in the shower is like taking a sanity break, a happy break.  its no wonder new poems come to me, new ideas, and new solutions to everyday little concerns that i hadn’t thought about before.  

i Get this.. that we are constantly fluctuating our bandwidth, as we go about our day, encountering and responding to the reality we create in our dreams (framework 2).   responding with fear or worry makes it less likely that we will be open to a creative development coming from our imagination (which is our connection to higher self).  but responding with love and trust opens us up to the rest of ourselves :)

ha Bit!

woke with the thought this morning:  be fully in the moment, don’t prejudge or react from habit.  

i was musing on the cool things about language, how some words just sound like what they mean, when it occurred to me that the word “habit”, the way the ending of it feels in your mouth when you say it, feels like a clamping down, a sudden ending.  and that is what habit does... it ends the possibilities of a moment when you choose without thinking, out of habit.   

but just for that little ‘bit’ of time, ha!  cause every moment is a new choice, will it be habit or something new.  

reality creation, energie configuration, and the game

we’re repeatedly told by friendly unseen entities that we create our own reality.  i’ve taken this to mean that the way we interact with the world, our attitudes and beliefs, determines the reflections we receive back, which we then react to, and so on, creating our life’s circumstances.  its easy to see how we can really dig ourselves in, into patterns of behavior.  which is the intention, i suppose.  so we can have the experience of holding particular thought patterns, and see how those translate into physical reality.  

but here recently, i am reading and hearing the same words as always, but getting something more.  seth says in one of the early sessions books that when we dream, we do not Go anywhere.  the dream scenario we are encountering is composed of the same atoms and molecules that compose the dresser, bed, and rug during waking hours.  we re-configure them to construct dream objects.  he says we are doing the exact same thing when we are awake, configuring our physical surroundings from our own energy.  but in slow motion because we do it within the context of time, so that we can experience the Process of reality creation in minute detail.  

i channeled some information a few months ago in response to my concern about chemtrails.  inner self, or whatever the source is (i’m not sure myself where it comes from; you’d think i’d be, but i’m not), says that we configure the sky with our very own energy, just the way we configure everything else in our environment.  if we believe the chemtrails are there, we see them.  nothing is being done to us.  we are seeing the physical results of our fearful beliefs that we Can be controlled.  (happy to say that there are no more chemtrails in the sky.  i figure an agreement was reached on some level and we are now in the process of cleaning up our earth, which will not take long at all, and everything will be fresh and new again!)

we are born, by choice, into established thought/belief/energy patterns; expecting to be pulled into them like magnets, according to our purposes.  as many people flow their energy into a particular belief/idea, it becomes a stronger and stronger magnet drawing even more people in, and probabilities associated with it become stronger potentials for unfoldment in the physical arena of activity.  the ‘things’ that seem so stable and consistent, year after year, are the things that many many people flow energy into and therefore create en mass.  but that doesn’t mean those things are any more “real” to a particular individual that doesn’t believe in them and therefore doesn’t create them for themselves.  

i recall seth telling the tuesday evening class that there exists a different coffee table for each person in the room, because each person creates their own version of the telepathically agreed-upon idea that there is a coffee table in front of the couch.  Really Getting this explains So Much.  so much.  

couple days ago, i was in the store looking for flipflops to replace  my old ones that suddenly came apart (to add to the list of shoes that have fell apart on my feet... will have to do some more musing on that one.  shoes and window blinds falling apart).  i’m a small thin person and wear a child’s size 2 shoe.  both kids and adult-sized summer shoes were on the same aisle, but were separated into different groups of bins.  i scoured the whole aisle, both sections, and couldn’t find what i was looking for in my size.  then i looked it all over again just to be sure i wasn’t missing something.  nothing.  i meandered around to the next aisle over to pick up some fabric dye for a project i’m working on.  as i walked, the thought popped into my head that that was the same store where i’d found the animal crackers a year or two ago.  in that incident, after looking and looking for some and giving up, i suddenly spotted two boxes of them (i needed two, one for each grandkid that was visiting) sitting on a random shelf out of context with the surrounding items.  the store clerk had expressed surprise when i checked out with them, saying that they haven’t sold those there for years, where did i find them? (these were not old or outdated).   

so i grabbed the box of dye and walked back around through the shoe aisle and headed for the register.  walking by the adult-sized shoes, i then see a whole section full of just the kind of flipflops i was hoping to find, in kid’s sizes, tucked in amongst the adult ones, just the right color, and there was a size 2 right on top!!  i swear they weren’t there before!  i had checked through the adult ones looking for a size 5, because even though that is too big, it would be better than wearing my boots around in 80 degree weather.  so i had looked right there, and those kid’s ones were Not there before!  its not rocket science to figure out that having my inner self remind me of the earlier ‘creating the animal crackers’ incident, tweaked my beliefs so that i could do it again.  of course, i created the whole incident in its entirely, including them not being there before.  

knowing that we do configure energy to reflect our beliefs, on the spot, in the moment, takes it a step beyond law of attraction.  its instantaneous, and that makes sense to me.  if there is no time, if there is just one big spacious present, then nothing Has to wait to unfold ‘in time’, it can just instantly Be.  the idea of time lapses is there to appease our ego, who wants to believe that it will take some ‘time and effort’ to get what we want.  cause that is part of the game, and we scandalize the ego at our own 3D peril.  

this reminds me of a dream experience that happened Years ago,  back in the mid-80’s, but one that is so much a part of my conscious Self that i could never forget it.  i dreamt that there was No Time or Space.  i was like a point of energy, and i never moved, yet paradoxically i was constantly changing.  All experiences came to me as i desired them;  i didn’t move out to meet them, and they didn’t move through space to reach me, because there was no space.  there was only my thoughts, and whatever i was thinking, just was.  Everything was Inside me, there was no outside.  there is a neutralness in this idea, as i’m remembering and expressing it now, that appeals to me. 

i was thinking too of how at random times, the walls and furniture look wavery to me, and the air seems alive.  sometimes i see trails of intense color following motions, like of someone’s arm moving or feet walking.   i’m thinking that all the tripping i did in my youth opened up pathways that allowed my conscious egoic mind to temporarily experience reality creation on the other side of the curtain, sts; and once opened, i sometimes stumble into them again, seeing clues to the game we play in 3D.   

pleiadian channel wendy kennedy said, when answering someone’s question about 2012, that we wouldn’t reveal the secrets of the game to ourselves until we were ready to step out of it, and then it will be like a series of cascading ‘aha’ moments.  in some ways i feel so close to that already.  yet i still exist within routine everyday life.  while i have my moments of insight, and magical things happen Daily, i still do not have a mate, though i want one.  and i wonder what life will be like this time next year, and if i am on the right train.  

what a fucking rollercoaster ride

had a dream last night of putting my mother to bed, upstairs, in a huge old house with lots of dusty old empty rooms, offering to let her use my electric blanket to keep warm.  we had just impulsively purchased the house that day (curiously enough, after having just rented another big house that morning).  then i was walking around in the backyard and discovered that there were Really Tall trees everywhere, blocking the sun.  ugh!!  again!!  recording my dream, i realized it wasn’t my mother i was dreaming about, but symbolically, my motherhood.  that part of me who strives to be the best mom i can be, putting all my focus and energy into making a stable home for my kids.  time to put her to bed.  felt a little bad about leaving her all alone in that big empty house, offering her just the energy (electric blanket) of my understanding to keep her warm.  

that part of my Self is clearly done; and somewhere inside me, it feels like all the surface enthusiasm, light and cheer, is...  Pushed.  i’m tryin a little too hard, where no trying should be happening at all.  “Things” falling away from me, shedding the skin of this persona, faster and faster.  evident especially in material things... don’t care about old photos, cds, books, furniture, giving stuff away and throwing stuff out, right and left.  but also in ideas, pieces of me i used to feel adamant about that now are just neutral ideas i no longer associate myself with (that Does feel lighter!).  

sitting squarely in the middle of the paradoxical being that i am,  seeing both sides of me at once, bringing them together and canceling them out.  no accident that i was born on the summer solstice.  square in the middle of outgoing gemini and homebody cancer.  equal mental and emotional perspectives.  equal feminine and masculine energies.  in a way i feel triumphant.  in another way, i feel unfulfilled, that there is Sooo much more that i could have achieved.  not even achieved in the usual sense, but more like Orchestrated.  but i find myself now feeling like i have to scrounge around for the energy to do anything else, and wonder too if there is any point.  

my usual way of being - which is to touch upon things as they come up and interest me in the moment, but not really delving deep into them - seems lacking in a way, now.  skimming the surface, tasting, but not really indulging.  maybe i’m just hungry.  maybe i’m not getting my hunger satiated here.  maybe i’m just in a weird mood because its cold and rainy and the first day of July.  Most Definitely feel uplifted when i sit on a blanket in the sun!  

it Always (and i’m not one to throw absolutes around frivolously), always amazed me that people could feel lonely with so many huMans on the planet.  guess i just had to experience it for myself.  it is most definitely a Psychological thing.  i have loving relationships with people, family.  but never feel all the way free to express Me.  when i posted earlier about my ET experience, it felt like what i have Imagined it would feel like to come out as gay.  to say something to not only your family but your friends and just random people who may run across your words, something that you know will change their perception of you.  its a little scary in that you risk losing acceptance, risk your Place in the scheme of the life you have built up around your Being.  but to not say it risks Your Self.  so it comes to a point where you Must say it, no matter what.  because the consequences of keeping yourself buried are not acceptable anymore.  so i wrote about just the one experience.  and No One, no one, NO ONE! even commented on it.  makes me realize how sequestered i have become in my own little world of just trying to keep up.  being content with learning new little artistic things and expressing my colorful being in small little ways that are really just little ways i try to keep my spirits high and ignore all the copious bullshit going on in the world.  

i have no idea what will become of me.  that is probably a problem.  as i’m supposed to be forming it in my mind ahead of me and moving into it, like one would move into a new room.  the other day i thought about how the place i’m now living is down, a downward-facing culdesac just like the one i grew up in.  with a creek behind it, granted.  but down.  the One thing i have Always wanted is to live on top of a hill.  some part of me is thinking it is just Not Meant to Be, not in this lifetime.  when i totally, blindly, overlook things, then they proceed to come up on the side of me, with me not seeing them until its too late, then i gotta believe they were meant to be.  sent from some other level of myself because unbeknownst to the wakingly-conscious me, this is what i came here for.  i have a sense that when i stop pushing altogether, when that last little bit of umph! is gone, that will be it.  its a matter of value fulfillment, as seth says.  you will focus here as long as you (your soul, higher self, entity, whatever) are getting something out of it, but not a second longer.  i suppose i can take from that that as long as i continue to wake up in the mornings, there is something here for me to do.  

can’t help but think of britta, who died in her sleep.  geez... don’t really want to end with that thought, but have nothing more to say.