nothing to lose, inner/outer self, joy

(from 9-9-09)

the place of "having nothing to lose" is often the best place to start/begin. there can be a building up of the new, without a feeling of tearing down the old. the old is not working, has not worked for some time, which puts one in an excellent place for play and exploration.

those gems of knowledge, that sense of trust, is discovered by way of taking action, being trusting enough, thoughtful enough, indeed Committed enough, to one's own overall development, to take action on the next small thing, and the next small thing, etc, without necessarily knowing/being able to see the outcome.

the inner self is similar to the human eye in the way that it cannot "see" itself, except through reflection. like the back of the eyeball, it processes the data that the front of the eye is exposing itself to. the front of the eye (ego) cannot see the back of the eye, but knows that it exists if for no other reason than that it itself exists. one whole unit, with various parts/aspects performing different functions within an overall "one" function, to see/experience/know.

the ego, or outer self, does its part just by existing, by being in the world, existing physically. in a sense, it can't go wrong. everything it encounters is processed by the inner self, and added to the vast storehouse of knowledge and experience that forms the individual personality.

the more open, soft, and malleable a personality is, the more data it can gather for its "whole self"; rigidity on the other hand just brings more of the same. even that (rigidity) is useful, as just one more kind of experience that can be had.

we are always saying "just have fun with it!", and that is a bigger statement than it may seem. the attitude/mindset of fun is relaxed, soft, impressionable, and can absorb more experience.

when one is doing something for the pure joy of it, there is no higher attunement with one's soul/higher self to be had on the physical plane.

the more one gives attention to/notices what brings one closer to, or separates one from, one's joy and passion in life, the finer edged their tool of discernment becomes.