musing about energy and creation

(journal entry for march 31st, 2010)

presupposing that all matter is energy, and all energy is conscious. all matter therefore being consciousness expressing itself as an idea outside of itself, at once creating and perceiving.

from a perspective further out on the “fringes” (slower frequencies, away from center), energy is perceived as matter.

energy/consciousness, groups itself together into more and more complex gestalts of activity/expression. this being representative of the “in-breath”. stability. evidenced/mirrored in the organization of “things”; of the human body, with its atoms into cells into organs into bodily systems performing specific functions. specialization, organization. ego.

triangular shape being representative of the most basic, most stable expression of energy; representing the polarities (negative/positive) plus the polarities combined into singularity. (thus the three points of the triangle). perhaps they are moving too fast for scientists to perceive, but if they are to find the smallest particles perceivable from our standpoint, they would have to be triangular.

the same consciousness/energy appears in different forms according to the dimension it seeks and finds expression within. light and sound coalescing into matter (being perceived as matter), from our perspective.

energy/consciousness flows thru patterns of form (matter) created by psychic intent. such patterns constantly change with the propensity of consciousness to move into form/stability, away from chaos, then dissolve back out into chaos (opportunity to regroup and experience new forms/patterns). THIS CREATES AN EXQUISITE IMBALANCE THAT DEFINES CREATION ITSELF.

energy “arrives” into form (psychic framework/idea), fully fills, and withdraws, creating the perception of time. the further away from center/point of origin of idea, the slower the process, the longer it “seems” to hold form (ie: rocks eons old). “before” images = clairvoyance, “after” images = memory.
higher up the spiral (faster frequency), events can be perceived in their entirety, although at ground level they are still happening. seems contradictory but its not. also, this does not equate to predestination, a point i pondered for literally years. each moment is a universe unto itself. creation extends outward in all directions/all dimensions.

on human level:
ego/personality = stability
dispersion of personality at “death” = chaos, allowing re-formation (new incarnations), new experience, new creation

larger galactic level:

“out-breath”, chaos, dispersion of consciousness into infinitely small “bits”.
“in-breath”: the gathering up of the bits into increasingly complex gestalts.

white hole/black hole, or as nassim puts it: white whole/black whole. i can see why he puts it that way.

it seems to me that this dynamic is present in everything. on the human level as the move towards ego/stability/marriage/groups/co-herence, then a restlessness, a desire to break out and create anew. its the constant give and take between settling in and breaking out that drives creation. form and non-form. stability and chaos. positive/negative, attraction/repulsion.

when i was a kid, we built forts with the neighbor kids. one of the boys had a motto: tear it down and build it better. soon as we’d finish building one, he’d have a new idea and want to use the boards to make it. it was his grand-dad who gave us most of the boards, so we kinda had to go along with him. we never got to enjoy the one we’d just built! at least have a picnic in it or something before dismantling it :) but i played with him alot anyways, cause it was so much fun designing new stuff.

positive and negative polarities, and the integration of them, all one thing. on a human level, what we are doing is realizing/internalizing that positive contains negative, and vice versa negative contains positive, so to integrate, we have to accept that both are part of and equal to the whole. by definition, the whole contains it all. embracing both creates balance, and stability, which would make sense as the way i see it, on a vastly larger scale, we are within the in-breath part of creation, coming back together.

and oh, the on/off, zero/one thing. the triangular shaped particles bouncing between negative and positive polarities, creating matter/anti-matter. “here” as long as they are “gone”.

jeez, when i get to thinking about this, what a PERFECT system it is!! creation IS the engine that drives it, assured to keep itself going for infinity. the inherent imbalance and striving towards balance, creating new movement (experiences) forever. expanding outward and inward at once.