intention to post my own channelings

at this very late date in the game, and as a part of my own expansion, have decided to go a bit more "public" with the reams of information i get for myself thru automatic writing. i have never known what to call them (though i think this is a bit by design); they converse with me telepathically as a group, and often will say "We this, or We that..." alot of times, this communication is in response to specific questions i ask of them, but sometimes it just comes to me out of the blue (oftentimes when i'm in the shower, ha!). but even then, most times it concerns something i have been thinking about intently, and often addresses my confusion in a helpful way.

i think a lot of people are doing this now, as things are speeding up and we are getting closer to ourselves. the thing i wrestle with is feeling like a big dork. in fact, i was thinking of naming this blog "tales from the dork side". but since it is a feeling i'd like to pass through and not perpetuate, i won't do that (cause then i'd have to remind myself of what a big dork i am every time i log in). also, i have worried from time to time whether or not this whole thing is symbolic of multiple personality disorder, since i do literally hear voices in my head. but i don't care about that anymore. i'm much more relaxed into, and accepting of, my Self, and all my weirdness and idiosyncrasies.

i'm going to pull some random older pieces that have been helpful to me, and post them first. then maybe start posting daily fresh info at some point. my thinking had been that this info is for me, and probably wouldn't be helpful to others, but then i tested it by sharing with a few others and they Did find it helpful, so here goes...

and oh... an explanation of why i refer to this as channeling: it comes in a sort of "block" of information, a bunch at once, and i write really really fast, so fast that sometimes i can't read it so well afterwards. my arm and hand used to "twitch a lot" (ok go ahead and have a laugh at that one), kinda make these little jerking motions as i am writing. but that has largely stopped over the years. still happens a little bit, sometimes. but the most overwhelming proof for me that this is coming from *at least* a different level of my being, is that i have no idea from one word to the next what i will write. it bypasses my critical thinking, i am not "forming a sentence, deciding how to word it, etc." i had to learn to trust this process over time, because at first it felt really silly, to start writing a sentence that i didn't know what would be said, what word would follow next. and maybe that is at least one reason it comes so fast, so i don't have time to think about it. i feel an Urge to write, and i feel Loving information right there at my fingertips. in the past, i've felt this Urge, and known there was something there, but didn't take the time to write it down. i was too busy to be bothered :) but i've found that when i do take the time, what i write is reliably good information, for me anyway. usually helps me to see things from a renewed perspective. so now i write, if at all possible, whenever i feel the Urge. i do know that i have the ability to voice channel as well, and that is something i always wanted to play around with more. but i would need another person... and i found that when i did have someone to be on the receiving end, and we did this, my emotional, and critical facilities would often times jump in and object, stopping the flow. i never learned to stay "out there, on the fence". also, i never learned to do it "at will". i never figured out what circumstances lined up just right to allow "them" to speak through me. well, some of it i figured out... but i still couldn't just decide to have a session and sit down and do it. sometimes they would come through in the middle of the night, seemingly unbidden, but my voice would be just a whisper, as if they could not turn up the volume, so much was lost. and sometimes i would (and still do) speak loudly in a different language (i only speak english, consciously anyway)... i do not know how this is connected. well, enough for now. enough to explain why i refer to this as channeling.